okay people, i'm going to start posting some poems and stories that some people may find offensive and/or dangerous to my own health.
I PROMISE THIS IS NOT THE CASE
before i get started posting these let me go ahead and tell you; I AM NOT SUICIDAL
i was-ish; more of, i would have been perfectly happy to die but would have never killed myself; i over that now; sort-of.
you see, the thing is, i will never kill myself no matter how much i wish to die merely because i have made promises to people who are precious to me that i will always be there when they need me. it doesn't erase how i feel. as some, or maybe all, of you already now; i'm bisexual. i'm also a christian and so is the rest of my family; but my entire family is pretty well known for being homophobic as well. this doesn't leave me in a good spot. i'm only out to my mom and sister as far as family goes and they had two very different reactions. my sister had already figured out i was more interested in girls than guys and she actually was happy i'd finally told her...my mother hates me. or rather she says she hates my 'decision'. LIKE I ACTUALLY MADE A DECISION OR WOULD MAKE ONE LIKE THAT. so basically, since she doesn't believe me on the subject and has bashed me whenever the chance arises; she's rejected me. so for give me if i have suicidal thoughts every once in a while. *sighs* whatever, i'm over it, mostly. anyway, i'm just telling you guys so you won't worry.
thanks, kory